"Its Not about the scales"

 It is great to have babies. They are so cute and lovely (most of the time) soft and smooth, big chunky butt and thighs that you could just eat. Some how big chunky thighs and butts are cute on a baby... not so cute on the mother! But that is what we are left with. OK,so its not JUST the butt and thighs, its the stomach arms face chest... well actually over all, just a big blow out.
I have had my 4 kids. That's it we are DONE (well?... if I could get one more, I would, but lets just say I can't see it!) SO now I am left with 20 kgs. MAN that's A LONG ROAD! 




It is so hard when you think you are doing so well in the eating and exersing front and get no where! Every week we work out so hard, love it and hate it all at the same time if that is possible?
We eat well  and tell each other.. its NOT about the scales, its how you look and feel and all that stuff.. that should be true. BUT come Friday afternoon and we meet at Gemmas for weigh in,  GUESS WHAT,... It is ALLLLL about the numbers!
Last week I lost 800g I think I told everyone who would listen. That was such a break through after a month of not loosing a THING. So this week I even increased my exersise and ate even better than the week before... and guess what happens... I PUT ON 100g!  How is that even ANY KIND of fair! (I guess it could have been worse Sarah put on 1 kilo! LOL) 
 I have just given up on even trying to figure all this weight loss thing out now. It is the weeks you feel really good and think "yep we are definitely definitely a good couple of kilos lighter" are the weeks you weigh in a tonne heavier!
Sometimes I think it is so tempting to go back the good old days of a diet of red bull, skittles, atleast I was skinny, (a little jittery perhaps!)
They say that if you can imagine it it can happen. I can IMAGINE being gorgeous and skinny again, that is NO problem, you just lie back on your nice soft bed with a comfy pillow and DREAM away, it would be great if while you were imagining this so hard, your body did just change right there as you lay on the bed all nice an cosy and when you got up.... woooop there it is, that perfect body you pictured in your mind!. 
No, the reality is sweat, hurt, pain, near death and burpies fruit and vege.
Gotta love it.
Dig it in for another week and we will see where we get.